Exhausted. I can barely open my eyes widely. When i laugh or smile, i can feel a pull at the end of my right eye. It is really painful. Tomorrow, we will be having our first maths test. I dont know why, but i tend to focus more on maths than other modules. I dont like mechanics all ahhh.
I know i have secret readers that read my blog but dowan to tag. =)))

Anw,the past few days was ok lahh. Well, you dont have to purposely send me a wrong love message trying to find out what i will reply. For goodness sake, i truly love only a person, that mama and ayah had restu-ed (im sleepy, i ferget the english term for restu), which is, Muhammad Azhar Bin Ramlan. Yes, only him. =)

After school, i had to rush somewhere. Then back to school for training. Gosh! I am really tired. And i had not put my best performance for regu for the past two days. I am very very tired. With the loads of assignments and upcoming tests. I had this sharp pain at the back of my head. It had been going on for the past 3 days already. After which, i had difficulties to breathe. Training ended so late that i made love waited for hours. After IVP, we will have our proper date aite? He had been supportive all the while. Meet me up every night. Well, i feel that, eventhough, i reached home much later, AT LEAST, i get to relax myself with you under the void deck.

After IVP, i will be working at guardian again. I had not told mum yet. Confirm kena nag.
Well, i forget, i LOVE THE SHREK 3D treat from love. =)


Niat, Yakin, Perjuangkan.
8 golds.
Bring it on!


Well, this saturday and sunday will be seni and maybe a few matches. Next week, will be fri, sat and sunday.


Hey love,
im sorry for being sensitive on what you had said.
Its my moodswing and i am really really tired.
I hope you will understand.

Monday, May 24, 2010 ♥

Thanks for treating my family macdonalds, love.
I am bored wen u werk at late night.
=(

@ 11:40 AM

Sunday, May 23, 2010 ♥

Sorry for the long absence. Im sure, love got bored when he could not read any new post each night since friday. All right. I will blog everything about friday and the camp. This is a 'pay-back post' for love. A long one, aite. =)

First of, Friday after school, love fetched me. We get my toiletries and black cotton tudung at Woodlands Checkpoint. All the way there, i teased love about meeting my parents on that day. He so cuak already. HAHA. So after we got my things, and i borrowed his silat pants yg baggy, yg i pakai dah macam hip hop pants, take his small and cute colgate, we sat under the block before proceeding to my house. Love, met mummy already.

At home, we watched movies. A horror one and half-way watched IP MAN 2. Love got irritated when i siap for silat but he still havent finish watching the movie. HAHAHA. So he sent me to gelanggang. At gelanggang, i had to cover for my coach. Thing is, the guy trainers are not serious. Always playing around. When they saw our coach, thenn they began to compose themself. So, coach commented on the training. I just feel that, the kids kicking and all dah rabak giler. So after gelanggang, i rushed to school.

When i reached there, i feel so heavy to leave love. I mean, i know im gonna miss him. I gave him a quick hug and i walked off. Cause, i could feel that, i could tear anytime. Upon reaching, they were doing the talking for confidence and team goal. We aimed for 8 golds.

The next day, the trainers wake us up at 4 for morning excercise. We were given 10 minutes to get ready. I could feel my head spinning. Cause the previous day, i slept for an hour only. Endurance. When, we were doing pumping cause we were late for 7 minutes, if im not wrong, i remembered NPCC days. Gosh. Then, we continue sleeping, normal training. And evening time, we were at Macrithie (suddenly i forget how to spell it), walk in, we were in pairs. Going out time, we had a mini race to go out of the place following the trainers' pace. We were separated into two groups. 3Bs' and Jotos. AHAHHA. im in jotos. 'Jom, one team one spirit'. Creative or waad?~

We were trying our best to keep close as a team. Pulling the one that were at the verge of giving up. Regardless of sex, male or female. Those who fell, we pull them up. The ones that were left at the back, we pull them. It really requires alot of mental and physical strength. Apart from my injury, i persevered. Its really painful. Till it causes me to shiver. When we end the race, I felt my head spinning, my knees cracked when i bend, my toe turned blue. BUT! I am proud, that we, NYP silat team, made it through, TOGETHER!

After shower, i was seating, talking to mum on phone, suddenly i felt a hard thud on my face. It was a ball. The guys were playing soccer. I dropped down and had difficulties breathing. I was gasping like that was my last breath. Lucky, Coach rad came to rescue. But, i don't get it, why was i shivering. Yana turn me on when she put MEDICATED BALM ON MY BACK! Wah, panas oi.

And, Izz said, haikal said that, the ball smacked onto my face, hit my tooth, and i accidentally swallow it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

The next day, i love the morning excercise. THEN~ training. Fight with Atiq. Gosh, she is good. As for regu. we really need to do it once and for all! All out girls. Please, make this a perfect one, for zaf and rad.

I receive 'love' letters. HAHAH. No Love, its encouragement letters. Will show it to you when you come over again aite?!

After that, went to swimming pool met mummy and sisters. Then go eat eat with daddy. Then go home. Wait for love to text to meet under the void deck. I dragged him to vista to get my slurpee. HAHAHHA! I love you ah. But, the wway he wore just now, smart ah. HAHA. Cannot puji him depan2. Nanti he kembang2.

Hey love, i really miss you during the camp. I almost burst when you hugged me tadi. HAHA. No matter how terok you kacau i, i still love you,baby. =))
Be home fast, cause im waiting..


This was writen with a sleepyhead. Pardon the grammar mistake. BYE.
=))

@ 5:13 AM

Thursday, May 20, 2010 ♥

I am bloggin without love asking me to do right now. I told you readers already, it became my daily routine. So, love is working right now. I am entertaining myself with songs. Today was okay. The fact that i laughed alot in class.

I came late for class, i wore, long skirt, sleeveless top with a cardigan, white scarf and a headphone. Then, i entered the class, tutorial room. Eyes are on me, then i put down my headphone, and realised that, i am listening to a rock song so loudly that people around me, can know what song am i listening to. So, i said, sorry and laughed. One of my friend say, "hidayah, your fashion and your personality like very not matching like dat. contradicting." Tell me how on earth should i react other than laugh out loud? So i said, "I slept late last night, so on the way to school, i need something to keep me awake."

AND. Zu asked me, 'maner perginyer adab kau?' stupid.

Then, Dickson, kk, known as, DJ, said to me, 'When i first join the class, i looked at you and im reminded of Little Red Riding Hood. No offence, but with what you are wearing and your cheerful personality, always smiling, laughing, talking, reminds me of red riding hood.'

Then, Zu annoyed me, add on, i had no enough sleep cause LOVE bullied me last night. He is having his sleep peacefully, me? Head banging during lessons. HAHAHA. Back to the story. Zu annoyed me. Then i pointed into his face and said to DJ, 'I hate this guy.'
DJ responded, 'K, then he will be the big bad wolf. You little red riding hood.' HAHAH.

Then, during mechanics, when everyone was paying attention, the class got distracted when we saw a girl got stucked on a pull up bar. Then i shouted, 'ehh, take picture put at storm. HAHHA.'
Everyone, looked lost at first, then they laughed out loud. HAHAH. Even the lecturer cannot take it. HAHAH.

After class, im supposed to meet love. But, i was being a sleepyhead. So, i went home to sleep first. Before going to tuition, i met hanisah fr late lunch. After teaching, i went home, waited for love text. I got a MCFLURRY from him! hehe.
So we chatted till 1130 under the void deck.
I miss him lots. That's why i irritated him to meet him.

Love, if im being too demanding or, too manja, tell me. HAHA. Yes, im being myself. But, i am afraid i might trouble you way too far. =)
Now, i am waiting for love to deliver fillet meal to my doorstep. Its 2am by the way.

Im going for a 3 days 2 night camp.
I almost cried when love said, that, it's not even a month we've been together, ive left him twice.
Gosh, im so sorry,baby. Its not that i leave you forever kan..??
Im just away. Not leave. Please, don't say that. Cause, i could not imagine, me, without you.
I've said before, i want to make my next, the last.
Now, you're my next, and i pray that, you are gonna be my last.
Stay strong aite?
Insya-allah. BUT FIRST!
You've got to meet MAMA and AYAH! hahaha.

He is going to follow me shopping tomorrow!! WEEE!~~~
Love you,baby. =)
<3





Labels : I blogged, without you telling me to. HEHE.

@ 10:43 AM

Wednesday, May 19, 2010 ♥

Ader orang mengamok i never update blog!

Dah macam daily routine gituu.

Yesterday, i went to school. I did not attend morning lecture cause i was feeling so drwosy. I went for Metrology and Quality Control lab as there's lab test. Boleh laah buat.

I wasnt paying attention through out the lesson. I don't know why leh. I tried, but i still couldn't.

Then, i must teach najib do the measurements.

After school, i teman love go doctor. He was having fever and yet, his mouth like radio. 24.7 irritate me. He even start to debate with me about medications. Forgetting the fact, that i used to be a pharmacist assistant.

Debate and debate till i malas to layan. I give him chance to win lor. SEBAB KAN DIA SAKET.

Then off to training. He told me that, he debate with his mum. And, his mum is siding me or either, siding guardian. HAHA.

Today.

Semestral project cancel. No national education lect. So, left with marketing essentials. I couldn't be bothered to go school for an hour lect. HAHA.

So met love. He brought me to Cineleisure. We had KFC.

He forced me to swallow the OILY CHICKEN FATS! EWW!

And he don't mind having a fat girlfriend.

And, he wants to make me excercise after IVP.

WAH! You think fun eh?! Naek and turonkan weight?!!!!!

We tengok criter Backup Plan. MY choice.

It was totally awesome!

Love was freaking at the moodswings of a pregnant lady. HAHAHHAHAHAH.

hey love,

I really sayang you. And i love your facebook status.

How i wish its my turn to wish upon a shooting star.

so that, this will be our last.

thanks for all, love.

@ 10:16 AM

Monday, May 17, 2010 ♥

I went to school with my nose blocked. Bad cough. Sexaay voice.
Mum had reminded me to take my medications, but me, being myself, i forget.
Mechanics lecture was like, 'What the crap are you crapping about?'
The lecturer wasnt lecturing, but instead he rapping. Talk so fast like what.
Then, at times he stop, he will breathe into the mic. LIKE?!
My head start to spin during lectures.
Then my nose suddenly become mucus pipe.
I coughed continuously for a few minutes.
And i end it with, 'Wahlauwe..!'
HAHAHA.


I couldnt take it already, so love fetched me home. And i have a great rest. A peaceful 1.5 hours of sleep. Before i agree to sleep, i debated with love. I wanted to complete my assignments actually. But, he insisted i go and rest or don't go for training. NOW, i got problem with my weight. Not enough or either, nice nice. Then go training kena torture drink HL with banana. Aisyah said they added something else, but don't want to tell us what. The second round, i escaped from drinking the milk. hahahahahaha. I know, zaf know, you all no need to know. HAHA.


Now, i am left with my maths equiz.
Hope, love get well soon.
HAHAH. I just find it so cute.
I got sore throat before going melaka.
When i come back, he fever.
Then soon, i jangkit him.
Now, i recovering, he fever again.
HAHAHHA
CUTE kan??!! i lagy cute!
HAHAH
K uhh! BYE!

@ 10:13 AM

Sunday, May 16, 2010 ♥

Have you guys ever wonder why medicine taste bitter and does not taste like chocolates and sweets?? I don't like medicines especially tablet form. Irritating uh to swallow one bullet into you gullet! THEN! You eat eat & eat but no effect!

I gave love wake u calls, but, ALSO NO EFFECT. HAHA. so i waited and facebook-ed. I planned to ask him go gym with me, but when he's awake, he asked me out. When asked where, he say, don't know. Told mum, then mama asked me whether i love her still or not after having a guy.. HAHA. MESTILAH, more than loving you, mama.

On the way to nowhere, love asked me, choice A or B, i said, A.

He told me to guess where are we heading, i said I DON'T KNOW ABOUT ROADS. He gave me alot of clues, then when i saw a signboard, stating, harbourfront, i guess, VIVO. AND, i am right lorrr.

So, we walked, talked, drink and take pictures. We spent time together. But, i've to meet mama at 8, so we got there off early.

Hey love,

You know what? I find our love story a very cute one. Cause, i get to know you from cyber. Meet once, twice. About 4 months back. Then i ignored you. When we contacted back, i got to know you met with an accident. Around my house area. Then, around my werkplace. When, things between me and him are in place. Knowing, that my chances being with him again are thinner than thin, we got close. We dated. We sat at the park and talked. Well, i did not plan to say what i wanted to say actually. It laterally, came out from my mouth. HAHAHA.

"Biler you on the road........"

HAHAHAH. I told mama. Mama laughed. Malu seehhh. So, i was sure, that the feelings i had for you, is not a rebounce, but, sincere. There is something in you that i am not sure what, that i envy about. Boy, quit the malu malu thing laaa. Cause, mama and ayah wants to meet you sooner or later. HAHAHA.

IVP is like, about 10 more days. And i have not fully recover. Damn it.

I still could feel the sharp pain, on my chest.

Heal it fast, Please.

I don't want my situation to affect my regu mates and team especially.

I've trained so hard for this.

please, heal.

@ 10:01 AM

Saturday, May 15, 2010 ♥

I am still having sore throat and a sexaaay voice. Back from celebrating Nai'mah birthday. We go to cineleisure to watch the Last Song. I cried in the cinema, actually, we cried! HAHAHA. Real touching. I really have alot of fun with my sayangs eventhough i am really tired back from training, rush home, changed, then rush to meet them. And, i am really delighted, that, i met Love, and, him being a part of me cause, he really understand me as a teenager. I got one big bruise from training tadi. When i am sick, and i train, i feel that, my endurance level lagi power luh.

Less than two weeks i will be fighting and doing seni in the arena.

I walked home from causeway. I was walking under a block at fagrant when i realised that, a BIKE of a macdonald's rider. I look at the bike, i've seen and even got up on it before. Then, i looked at the plate number, it belongs to LOVE. HAHA. very the lucky kan..??

Then, i went home. love met me in front of my lift to give me FILLET, the first thing he said was,"you lawa."
HAHA. wait, how else can i respnd? minus the pimples for me!
I feel short and BIG by his side.




Please, get away from me. I dont wanna lose him.
I love him,heaps.


"i am sorry, for i am the cause of you accident, cause i ignored you last time."
"ingat orang yg menyayangi dan akan menyayangi you."


=))
i know, he knows, yoy no need to noe.



love.

@ 10:26 AM

Friday, May 14, 2010 ♥

Pardon me for the absence. HAHA. Boyfie mengamok i never update. HAHA.
Penat you know...! <3
Yesterday, i end school, go for tuition at first house. Then meet boyfie kejap, then go for second house. Then meet boyfie. Then want to know what?
We heading home, from guardian, cause i want to get my inhaler. Then, i asked for discount, 20 cents off the original price, he teased me cheapskate.

Him: Your dad.
Me: HUH?
Him: Your father.
Me: HUH huh huh huh? hahahahaha.
Him: *turned around and looked at me* bapak KAU!
Me: HAHAHAHAHA *beat his back banyak banyak kali*

Yesterday, i sneezed, 23 times in 24 hours.
After midnight, i go toilet 5 times before i get proper sleep.
Then vomit 3 times before i get proper sleep.
Then after wake up in the morning to go school, i go empty my bowel again, add up to 8 times!
I give up, text boyfie if he can teman me go doctor.

So, yeah he teman me, and i cannot stop complaining. About the que number, the pain and everything lah. then he busy watching ellen, i stoin at the side. hahaha.
doctor say, 2 days never recover, refer to hospital.

Told zaf, and, i put her to alot of worries! HAHA. sick sick still go train!
hahahah.
Love also cannot tahan my degil.
Sick sick go drink Slurpee.



I love you, much. <3

@ 9:57 AM

Wednesday, May 12, 2010 ♥

I am mentally and physically warn out.
Imagine, finish school, you rush over to admiralty give tuition, then rush back to school for silat training. How tiring can that be..? Till i have to ask help from love to solve a PRIMARY 3 sum.

I am happy to have love around me most of the time.
I dont like the feeling to miss anyone.
Now, there is nothing for me to turn to my past, except for the learning points and experience. Actually, for everything that happens, and anything bad that happens last time, makes me keep going.

Training is very the fine.
Tired only.
Memang patot tired kan.

ANW, i sneezed without closing my mouth infront of 3 people. Actually, i din see them lor. What else, fahmi and aaron laughed like crazy when the 3 people got shocked. HAHA.
And today, in total, i sneezed, 12 times. And i injured my ankle and thumb again. 2 more weeks to IVP.


I want you to be the one
-that wiped my tears when i cry.
-that hug me when im cold.
-that wishes me goodnight every night without fail.
-that i hear the first and the last of the day.
-that pulls me up when im down.
-that wont leave me...

I love you now. Tomorrow, the day after and the coming days to come.
AND! i cant forget the day when you asked me to be yours, in front of my eyes, and the way u smiled when i nodded. =)




I love you..
We shall go out on a proper date after IVP, love. =)

@ 10:44 AM

Sunday, May 9, 2010 ♥

I am back from melaka. It was fun although the weather can actually make me sweat like i just finish my bath lor. I missed my bed and definitely, my love, my boyfie lorrr.


HAVE YOU PEOPLE BEEN TO A WEDDING CEREMONY AND ENDED UP WITH SOIL AND MUD IN YOU SHOE? PLUS, AT THE BOTTOM PART OF YOUR KAIN???

AND! eat food like... pucuk ubi, tempoyak, and i don't know the name of the kuah that is made up of raw onion and pineapples. The only thing i eat there, is the chicken.



When, i brought this up to dad, dad laughed at me. Actually i have no problem eating all that. BUT, in a wedding ceremony you were given leaves to eat?~~ -.-'



THAT, was on sunday morning. The rest of the days were spent on serious business. =)

Back from melaka, mum and dad has been busy talking about me getting married and about my sayang. GOSH~! im only 18. Not yet 18 even! and i dont even know how to cook. HAHAHAHAH.

me:- i want to have a husband that cook and kemas rumah. Then i go out and werk. HAHHAHHA



boyfie:- tak tau masak, duet hantaran kurang!

HAHAHAHAHAHA


mak ngah :- aku letak langsir kat slendong aku tk muat ahh, maz. (she is talking to mum, im reading the paper.)
mama:- aper tu kak?
mak ngah :- tu huh! (pointed at the sliding door)
me : SLIDING DOOR LAH MAK NGAHHHH! ahahahahhahahahha. bukan slendong. HAHAHAHAHH



mak ngah :- W-A-R-M tu aper?
mama :- warm.
mak ngah :- aper tuu..??
mama:- panaskan.

* the thing goes on the same process only the subject different. instead of warm, it became, fry, bbq and one more i forget.

I was in the loo, and i laughed at how cute mak ngah is!

Sayang, i feel so empty to be left alone. ='(


mum and dad wants to meet you soon. =))

@ 9:35 AM

Thursday, May 6, 2010 ♥

Just a few more hours, i wont be in singapore. Gosh, i am gonna miss that naughty boy of mine.
AZ, biler dayah tkder kat singapore be a good boy. No naughty-naughty-ing. HAHA.
Hope, if you rempit-ing or beat any of the traffic rules, biar TP kat tepi, jadi you tak buat salahhh. HAHAHAHAH.

Just text me tau. I got auto-roaming.
HAHAHAHAHA

ANW,
wei, your friend says that, you said to him, 'AKU TAK TAU APER LAGI YANG DAYAH NAK DARI AKU.' EH, tolong lah ehhh, all this while, kau yang contact aku per. Ader aku make the first move to call kau? Eh, stop making stories lah. I am happy and happier with my life now. PLEASE ah. Stop your craps lah.













too much to do, so little time.

@ 10:09 PM

♥

I am having fevr right nw. I am spinning like a spinning top. Or maybe, worst than that. Due to that, i am making alot of spelling mistakes while blogging. And so, i am not going to schol tomorrow. Automatic control and maths lecture.

Tomorrow, I won't be in singapore for like 3 days 2 night. Now, i sounded like going to camp. Well, yesterday i din know that training will end super late. I made boyfie waited for 1 hour for me. And so, he fetched me home and we sat under the void deck.
I cudden stop coughing while talking to him on the phone. I love yesterday's phone call. =))

Somebody once told me that if i got a boyfriend,and he is the last one among his siblings, im gonna get headache cause he is very mischievious. HAHA. Well, boyfie proved that right. He cudden stop teasing me. And the fact, i still love him. +.+
He is too tall. I aint too short. His leg are too long. Not my leg too short. His palm are so big. Not mine are small lor.

Watched Iron man 2 with him. Was looking forward to it. Guess what, boyfie cheated the cashier. HAHAH. He said he wants two tickets for students just because i say, student price cheap! HAHAHAH! Throughout the movie, he keeps complaining its boring cause too much of talking. Ok lah, lau gitu, Az tengok criter mutekan suare dier. =))



I cant wait for IVP.
2 more weeks. Just make it short.
Less than 10 training days.
All the best. CMON regu puteri's!!!!!!















Much love.

@ 8:45 AM

Tuesday, May 4, 2010 ♥

04 May 2010
Az, thanks for the surprise you've got me just now morning. I just cant stop smiling and waiting for the future and day ahead. Thanks for everything you've done.

Az, dayah tak mintak banyak dari hubungan ini az.
Dayah cumer mintak, kebahagiaan, kepercayaan dan, ketulusan.
Insya-Allah, everything will go smoothly.
We will do this together alright,love?

ANYHOOOOTS,
boyfie, got my name on his helmet. AND, i think ppl that dont know his name on the road will think that is his name agaknyer.. hahahahha
and yes, i cant wait for thurs.
AND, can he not go and serve SINGAPORE??!
Az, az act saket lahh... !
Jadi az takyah gi serve!
HAHAHA.



AND, if can i want to hear your voice everynight before i sleep tau. =))


















p/s: dayah sayang az... =)

@ 10:50 AM

Sunday, May 2, 2010 ♥

Today, whole day at home. Good girl kan i..?? HAHA.
Even that pak cik also say i good girl.
I want to become an ignorance to my past. For what's good, let it stay in me. For what's not, its a learning point for my next.

Things are getting better each day. I am proud that i manage to handle my feelings real enough. And pull it through. WOOHOO! Cause, i have my pakcik. But, hey, this is for my previous. Please, ive no one else. Don't make me lose my friends. I love them.

I sat the whole day at home, asking myself and telling myself what i really wanted.
I wanted a new chapter in my life. I want a bright future for myself. So, ive to make a great 360 degree turn to the future. And yes, it takes alot of courage for this. And, yes, strength.

Going to catch IRONMAN2 with my pakcik.
Yes, i started to fall for you.
Please, don't destroy my hope.
And, take my hand, and lead me to a better day ahead.
I will get worried, if my text, don't receive any replies.
And, i will get worried, if, you might not stay on with me.
You gave me the whole lot courage to start anew,
so please, stay with me through.. =))



much love,
dayahhhh!

@ 10:04 AM

Saturday, May 1, 2010 ♥

I went for my first lesson to my student's house. Teaching maths and malay. HAHA. long time i never do malay tau.
After that went to meet yana, aisyah,khai, faten, acap and hakkim.
Before that, only four of us go eat at Popeye at flyer.
Then walk walk till i dont know go where.
Then buy maggi cup and instant burger seat along the bridge and played UNO.
I was the first one to end the game. and khai's the last one.
WELL!

i have alot of fun!
i miss my PAKCIK!=))

@ 9:48 AM