Wednesday, June 30, 2010 ♥
Kalau tadi Babyputeriy, ni baby-dayahhh.. HAHAHAHAHAH
Well, yeah, i got this like malas-to-update syndrome, so i ask my lovely adik sedare to update it for me.. Actually i was busy revising for my common test. I only confident of a pass for mathematics and mechanics. For, automatic control and MIS, selamat lahh yer.
To the one:-
The feeling i had, faded. I am feeling helpless. I could not stop myself from loving someone or stop my feelings to fade away..
yes, you've earn it before, but it's never easy to earn it back.
We still can go out together, go for date, and talk to each other. Spent time together.
For once, leave me.. ='(
p/s: -.-
@ 1:26 PM
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hello.
im babyputeriy once again updating for my lovely kakak sedare right here :) for now; im puffing & tuning on to : Cinta Kita .
Awww, im addicted to this song . Really am meaningful seyy ! :) hehe^^ oh yea. kakak , was having some conflicts on the phone while she's revising. pity her, she was so damn stress up. I really want to thanked her , for recommending me to her workplace ; awww. sweets ,
thanks alot tau ! really appreciate that , its much more convenient for sure , cause seriously , i need a job .
im bored being jobless. with no money ; hais. i dont wish to put burden towards my mum anymore.
hmm. so yea; tmr will be going for interview at around 4pm - 6pm and she's accompanying me for that interview.
wow ! so damn , happy to have a lovely cousin like you :} huhu ^^
hoping that , i would get that job :D amin ! best of luck to me . hehe.
yknow, my right eye keep on twitching -.- and i felt abundantly irritated . sumpa ! hais.
for kakak ;
thanks for being there whenever im in doubt .
whenever i need someone to be there , and you'll be always be there for me.
You'll always did something for a reason & i could see that ^^
wow ! thanks sayang ! :)
awww , she's yawning . she's damn tired . pity her :}
kay kay , i pon da nantok seh ): hais. penat gile .
update soon .
i love you :D
takecare sweets!
@ 1:09 PM
Tuesday, June 29, 2010 ♥
hello Dayah's daily readers ^^
im BabyPuteriy updating for her blog ,
you may not know who i am ,
So yea, im her cousin .
& without further adue , let me just update her blog post for today .
I chatted with her , a few minutes ago ,
and we had eventually made a deal .
i'll update her blog & she'll update mine ,
after she finish studying :}
Time check in : 12:56am.
& im just doing nothing much .
feeling so damn bored.
as im all alone at home )':
Abai at Tiongbahru & Mummy working .
She knew me too well.
She know how i hate being nagged & she knows every single thing happenning in my life.
She understand me well.
Sometimes, we did have conflicts ,
but she do that , all because she wants the best for me .
She wanted me to become someone meaningful :}
and i was so dumb .
and i didnt bother to listen to her , until one fine day :}
and now, yes.
Whatever she used to say , was damn true :}
thanks sayang !
Walau apape pon , air dicincang takkan putus.
Cause , you're still my blood.
Busuk2 , tetap kita jumpe lagi :}
betol tak kak ?
Niway , i would like to apologized and thank you so much .
For making me realized.
Im proud to have cousin like you :}
You're so sweet !
Niway , abg azhar do take good care of her okay ?
im happy to see you both happy tau ! :}
done with updating ,
Akak , im sorry once again .
I love you ! :}
@ 9:52 AM
Sunday, June 27, 2010 ♥
Heylo daily readers. Sorry for the long absence. I have alot to update and talk about. Things had been going all way round. Up down, right left and front back. Yet, i am still standing strong.
It was such a bad experience to faint in public. Thursday, i woke up in the morning having diarrhoe. I thought, the pain in my stomach are normal stomachache, so i took dhacophan, to eas the pain. I stayed in the toilet for more than 30 minutes but i still could not get the satisfaction to release myself. The pain gets stronger. I almost fell in the toilet when i am making my way out. I ate a slice of bread. Before i could finish the whole piece, i rushed to the toilet again, now, vomitting my lungs out. I could feel my head spinning. So i lie down on the sofa and fell asleep.
A few hours i wake up to get ready for tuition at admiralty. The pain was killing me and i move very slowly. Then i realise, i am late. So i paced faster. I took the train to admiralty. In the train, my head spins harder! HAHHA. When i got out of the train, this man pushed me, waahhh! the impact, i tell you...! CANNOOTTT DESCRIBE LAH~
I stood on the escalator, realising, im gasping for air already, my vision became blur and lalalalalala, i fell on the escalator. AHAHAH. I could hear a malay man voice, reciting the Selawat into my ears. I felt as if, im dying soon. THEN, when i open my eyes, im in a room.They gave me hot milo, they put fan in front of my face. I could feel tears rolled down my cheeks. I clenched my right fist, then i squeeze my tummy with my left hand. IT WAS DAMN PAINFUL. I cried.
I waited dad to arrive and accompany me to the doctor.
FROM THAT DAY, TILL TODAY, MAMA COOKED PORRIDGE WITH MINCED CHICKEN FOR ME. I CAN ONLY PUT KICAPPPPPP for my SEASONING!
Yesterday, went prawning with love and his Mac'Ds friends. It was my VIRGIN experience to go for FISHING. Prawn fishing. Love, disturbed me when he got the Prawns already. When, throwing the bait, i do. When pulling out, when i saw the thing moving, love do. HAHAHA. I enjoyed the day, but, mama was not in a good mood for some reasons.
Congrats to my second sis for the silver in PSK.
Im sorry i could not watch your finals.
Love,
I miss the pakcik that i fell in love with. The one that i can look into the eye and utter 'I love you'. The one that i cared so much, even if a drop of you blood ooze out. I miss you alot. For everything that happened during this ride, it makes me stronger than yesterday. If only i could tell you how much i love you, how much i don't wanna lose you and how much i cudden bear to hear you comparing me to else, i would.
Im sorry, i wasnt myself the past days, i was so dissapointed in you. I simply find, every single guys are the same. No difference. From now onwards, tell me anything that i do, that make you sad, that you mind, that you don't like. Don't hide it love.
If its my fault, or yours, we solve it and face it together, not only you to keep and hide the feelings.
I love you.
@ 10:20 AM
Wednesday, June 23, 2010 ♥
Time check.
1.37 am.
Im bored. At home with dad, syira and love.
They are doing their own stuff while waiting for what-i-dont-know match. Yesterday also. Love trained syira for her upcoming PSK. It was funny and tiring ah. You know why..? Actually, i regretted saying im done when he asked me if im done with my revision. Cause, end up, ive to play tapping with syira. Her kaki like kayu, her badan like badak. Takot oi. I slack alot. I know.
Naimah,
I know, someday you will read my post. I miss you heaps dear. But, im too busy with work and revision. I had no time for myself even. I wish that time will past by fast, so that i can talk and crap with you like we used to. I really miss you. And i really want time to past fast, get over all the tests and work. And book a day out with you. Cause, i really want to let out this huge lump in me. Don't worry, darling. Its not about my relationship at all. He is taking good care of me. And i cherished every moment with him.
Adek,
No matter what.. be strong. Im here for you aite darling..
=)) i love you alot, sayang.
Pictures not yet uploooooooaaaddddeeddd.
Malas uh.
Labels :I don't want this to end.
@ 10:37 AM
Sunday, June 20, 2010 ♥
I studied yesterday till 5 am. I studied automatic control. The stupid ladder diagram. HARD oi.
Then, i tried doing maths last year paper, i almost quit seh. Susah.
Then i slept around 6 plus. Mum woke me up at 12pm to go to two wedding ceremony place. Mama was talking with Cik As when this aunty came to us and asked them, "Anak saper ni?" Pointed to me.
Then blablabla, she asked, when i want to get married. HAHA. Mama said next year. Then mama explained to me alot of things about marriage and even asked me what type of card i want. HAHHA. I told love that i want to let my sister marry first, so that we can follow the adat melangkah. Then, i can ask for anything.
After that, i met love under void deck. He looked like he never see people with traditional costume gituk. HAHA. =))
Then, we plan a last minute outing.
We planned to go to waterfront, but very crowded.
So, love brought me to labrador park.
Gosh, i love the look out place he brought me.
So, romantic.
Next, henderson wave uh. Confirm nice also kann..?
Man, i really felt relaxed just now.
I feel so secured with him..
ANW, love was making his way out from a parking slot, then i told him, 'Tengok motor org sumer ader simpan kain.'
haha. cause, last time, he when raining, he used his pants to wipe the seats. HAHA.
Then he tak puas hati, he switched off the engine and open the seat to show me his cloth. HAHAH.
cute dol.
K lahh, i off to sleep now.
p/s: We manage to catch a sunset at labrador just nw.
@ 11:15 AM
Saturday, June 19, 2010 ♥
When the time comes, you will realise how much family presence meant to you. Not, the one that you talk on phone all night, text all day long.. But, your mum,dad and siblings that will be by you.. All way long.
For what i had done, was to make the gap closer. Which i think, the naive mind of yours, was never in place. I know all time round, you've grown up. The both of you, are young adults, but, to think it over again, young adults, with great sense of maturity level don't do pre-marital sex and have to think of the solution when the girl gets pregnant. Instead, wait for the right time and enjoy. And, you real have the cheek to talk to me about nafsu..? Well, at least, mirror yourself.
If you think a man that work at fast food restaurants can earn you a lump sum of money, to support yourself, himself and the baby, including house and whatever essential human needs, then you're wrong.
Marriage is something that you have to think about thoroughly. Not a day of enjoyment on the 'pelamin', a night of 'melepaskan nafsu' but, its worth your whole life.
You gave what you've got. The thing that you have to keep for your husband. No doubt, i know that you know, apart from sin, its the most valuable thing in you, that you can never trade with anything at all. I do miss the stayover, the talk we had before, but after granny went away, everything was already in a mess. Every single thing, girl. If this is life, of a great family, then what happens to the next generation of us? Have you thought that, if you are married, and given all the luxury, happiness and all.. You walk the mall and run over a toddler, not knowing, that toddler, actually has got to do something with you.
For whatever happens, your name, will always appear in my prayers. So that, ALLAH will look after you and your well-being.. As well as your child. I love you.
Think is a big word. Decision is harder.
I cried all night long. Thinking. I can't study. I can't revise. I almost came to a conclusion to quit. But, i know, its never worth it.
Im still not asleep, its already 5.05 am.
I miss my baby, i had problem sleeping.
I am doing my deep thinking.
I love you.
I, really do.
@ 1:46 PM
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AND, yes, i broke three records in a day. WAH.
First, i went to watch, my second time, karate kid with mama, atan and toyol, with my full guardian outfit. I was expecting stares from people. But, none. HAHA. Since, i know the show already, i slept the part that i know, boring and alot of talking. And, like got alarm to wake me up like that. During the show, mama was shouting. I could imagine how she would be cheering for atan during her fight. HAHA.
Second, i slept with my guardian outfit through out the night. Guess, how tired i am. 3 days full shift. Even my baby marah. hahaha. Sorry, b..~
Third, i was FORCED to learn how to cook. URGH! Then, when i mix all the ingredients, got colouring on my fingertips. HAHA. i wiped it off at mama's night dress. HAHAH
Baby, no matter what that pulls me down, i will get up on my feet, when i think of you.
Biarkan takdir menjadi jawapan pada doa' ku.
Agar, ini menjadi yang terakhir..
*p/s: i know, you will nag after you read this. Cause, its in malay.
AND YOU GO AND GET UR BLOG UPDATED!
Love you baby..
=))
@ 11:14 AM
Tuesday, June 15, 2010 ♥
Nothing much happen today. I went to work only. Only me and hanisah manage the store. No complains, unhappiness. Everything done smoothly.. WHY?! cause the two of us co-operate.
Yesterday, i learnt how to do closing, the full closing, so today, i have to practice it alone uh. haha. i was joking with hanisah to do full-time at guardian. HAHA. But i cannot take the system uh.
I mentioned to love that i am afraid that i cannot make it for this semester. I really2 slack leh.
I was thinking, if guys that smoke, needs ciggarette to keep them running when studying, then, if i don't smoke, take what eh..? *i can imagine how love will react to this. hahahah*
I just don't know where to start uh.
Mum ask me..
Mum: kak, are you ready to be a pure lady?
Me: kakak sekarang tak pure lady ke..?
Mum: tak lah, maksud mama, learn how to cook and all.
Me: err.. nantilah ma.. im not ready yet uh.. hehe.
Mum: tak leh kawen.
Me: ALAHHH..
Mum: Takkan suami kau nk makan ayam gorang, ikan goren, hor fun je?!
Me: Maggi, telor rebus, telor goreng. Nugget?
Mum: no nonsense..
Me: Fine.
alaah, i just cant imagine lahh. I start to cook. cannot kahwin first then learn ke..??
problem uh.
@ 10:33 AM
Monday, June 14, 2010 ♥
Lets talk about Saturday, Sunday and today.
Saturday, i thought of going school to train, then, i remembered, i had to rest. My body are not functioning well these days. I got up to bath. I wanted to go work earlier than in schedule. Cause i know, now, we are short of manpower. Anw, after my bath, i got a call from yad. At first, i don't want to help him out to take the gelanggang, but after uncle talk and some negotiation, i helped. Thing is, i know he is lying. The background when i called his phone, doesnt sound like he is in camp at all. My prediction are right when sis showed me something and when Mira, told me he did not went to camp at all. I don't get it why on earth must he lie. I mean, if you really don't want to go for gelanggang and need my help, just tell me the bloody truth that you had plans with you girl or friends. I mean, i understand uh, if you need life, like you said. BUT, dont freaking lie to me. So, i was sick, but i still went down to al-iman to help out and rushed off to work. At night, met love. =))
Sunday,i had breakfast and luch with love. We had our breakfast at Woodlands Mart and lunch at my work place. Yesterday was a pressure at work cause, i had to juggle the cashier, shopfloor and pharmacist alone. The staffs are either new or just simply spending time with their bf during working hours. ASS. i know. Nothing much happen.
So, just now, i and love overslept. HAHAH. as usual uh. We met under my void deck and had some conversation uh. He was talking about kuder kepang..
Him: orang tu dah khayal...monyet dah naik atas uhh..
me: huh? monyet betol ke bedek..??
HAHA. what you guys think? monyet betol ke bedek? HAHAHAHHA. then we went to get the tickets for the Karate Kid and had our brunch at banquet. Then followed love to the bike shop. Gosh, i made a new friend. A great one to team up with and tease love. HAHAHA. Then, we went back to causeway and watch the movie. It was great uh the movie. I rate it 5. After that, went to admiralty. Had ice cream and we went to my void deck, crap here, crap there, and off we go home.
Love, there is nothing for me to regret about making you as my choice.
Cause i know, no matter what, in a relationship, i have to make decisions. And, things are never always up. I'd love you for who you are. I love it if you open up your arms. I love it if you look at me, eventhough i tend to blush or look away. Just know that, i love you...
@ 10:51 AM
Friday, June 11, 2010 ♥
Its term break now. First part of the day, got Automatic Control. Everything okay, only labelling. Maths, i did a stupid careless mistake. I forget to square them! I got all the formulas right sehh.
Then tuition, then back to school for silat celebration.
I had been waiting for today. WHY?! Well, i miss everyone in the team. Its our recovery period now. We went through alot. The trainings, camps, shoutings, misunderstandings actually brought alot of nice and wonderful moment as a result. Im gonna miss Zaf alot especially. I have no older sister. And, she is a perfect one since last yr IVP.
After celebration, we played a game. Yana start the ball rolling and bla bla bla. I thought, no one will pick me uh.. so i sabo people. HAHA. skali, i kena seehhh.. HAHAHHA.
Then met hanisah at werkplace. Then met love. Gosh, i miss him.
I begin to love him more and more and more each day..
despite the down time we had ,i still love you baby..
i love you.
@ 11:14 AM
Tuesday, June 8, 2010 ♥
Reality check.
Presentation of that Lin Kim Bah mid term will be due tomorrow. Gantt chart still not up. Freak. Im in no mood to do any presentation.
Today was my first comeback to Guardian. HHAHA. Stupid uh. I forget alot of things. And alot of new stuffs to update. I still find working there a big burden.
With the nag, like wah piaaaaang.
I had been enjoying the talks i had with love. Just now, start of bad with him. Met Shuhadah before going off to work, then met love skali. Go cash converters. Don't know for what. No motive. My itchy hand go touch something im not suppose to. Ive been eying on this iPod, love don't let me get it when i get my pay. Tak fairkan? Takper, we will see. I don't care, i still want it to be my own titik peluh. Not hiS. =))
He fetched me home from work. I was coughing all day long at work tadi. Customers look at me. WHO ON EARTH CARES?! its a free country, remember?
Met mira under my void deck with love. She will be sleeping over again. I feel much much better if she's right by my side. Just like now.. No matter how much she whines, i still love her. =))
I miss the whole time i had with all my cuzzie. But now, GOSH.
I just hope for things to go right. And never left.
=))))
I had seen and been through alot of sufferings. I want this to end quick.
<33
@ 12:09 PM
Monday, June 7, 2010 ♥
Twist and turn.
I twist and turn and toss and roll on bed, but i still could not sleep. I worry so much, too much about the girl and my future. I just don't know how to let out my feelings. This is very abnormal. Cause, usually, i rely on writing to pour out everything.
I love the talk i had with love in the evening just now. I realised, how much serious he really want this to be his last. Not only him, but me. I want this to be the last. Im tired of heartbreaking, heartwrecking. It is seriously not fun. I just want this roller coaster ride to go on with no stop and pause. Cause, i love the up and down, the turn and bend.
Dunia.
Kekal dengan karakter sketsa. Penuh dengan segala lakonan dan aksi. Baik mahupun buruk. Inilah pentas kehidupan yang tak mampu sesiapa pun lari atau terlepas jauh. Seketika mahupun selamanya. Kehadiran insan di dunia ini bukan satu khayalan, tetapi realiti.
Kelamnya malam tanpa sinaran bulan, yang hanya ditemani kehadiran bintang. Aku hanyut di arus fikiran, yang aku tenggelam sendirian. Mengapa ini harus terjadi..? Bukan mahuku untuk menyalahkan takdir yang ditulis. Tetapi apakah alasan disebalik kejadian ini, aku pasrah dengan apa yang sedang aku saksikan. Sakit, perit, perlahan aku telan.
Manusia dijadikan tidak sempurna. Salah satu sebab lelaki dijadikan adalah untuk melindungi wanita, insan yang lemah. Bukan menganiaya atau menggunakan kelemahan wanita itu demi memuaskan nafsu. Tiada siapa yang dijadikan sempurna. Pasti ada cacat celanya. Terimalah kehadiran temanmu seadanya. Jika niatmu suci, ikhlas dan tulus, insya-ALLAH, hidupmu diberkati ALLAH.
Please keep that girl safe. Please look after her well-being. Cause, i love her. I truly love her. I want the best for her.
And my coughs are getting worst by night.
Love,to solve a problem, is not by killing.
I dont wanna lose a sweet like you.
That cherished my moments.
That draw the smile on my face.
I really do love you.
<33
@ 10:57 AM
Sunday, June 6, 2010 ♥
First of all, Congratulations to NYP silat team for the Overall Championship. Through the tough moments we went through, the lovely bond we create, that is the home i want to stay in for long. Other than that, to my babes of regu puteris', congrats on the silver. Soon, next yr, we shall train for gold aite? Insya-allah.
Demo was okaay. Only a little bit of kegenjotan! haha.
Hidup ini adalah satu putaran. Kita tak akan selalu berada di atas. Kadang-kala di bawah, dan ada kalanya di atas. Hanya DIA yang mampu menentukan putaran itu, kita hanya mampu merancang. Oleh itu, kemenangan atau kejayaan yang dikecapi, tak mungkin akan kekal.
If you think, that every single thing that i say you cannot accept it, tell me. So, i will keep the comments and advices to myself. No use, having a degree, PHD, a car worth million dollars, a condominium, but your attitude shows you are nothing. People dont go for quantity, but go for quality. I just cannot take big fat ego attitude. A basic respect and manners to an elderly simply show me your true colours. Who you are before, doesnt reflect what you are now... And, its never too late for me to change my mind.
I dont go for big cars, big house, high standard, restaurants or wadeva.. You can make me happy, even by walking me to work, eat our meals at coffee shop. I dont care. But wads the use, of me being ur half, if i cant say wad i think. wads the use of u being my other half if i cant venge my mood on you..? we need the both to have this long. Single and attached life are two different things and changes that the two of us have to accept. And different people, party, react differently on different or sometime, same occasion. Think. Big Word.
I need to start mugging.
@ 9:42 AM
Wednesday, June 2, 2010 ♥
I hate coughing. Cramps. I am craving for a bubble tea, chocolates and a slice of oreo cheesecake.
Love went JB now, and i am worried about him. Things that happens let it be a challenge aite? Never sigh or get angry when things never get your way. But instead, make it a learning point so that it won't repeat k sayang?
You know, things that happened during my past, turn me into a stronger individual today and the next day. No matter how much i hated the situation, i carry it slowly and put it back in place. Eventhough i know, some people known as moron, just simply could not see me happy.
Im sorry NYP silat, i couldnt come for trainings this weeks. I am not feeling well and i feel weak all the time. We are still a family. And, this weekend, ive got to rush to pesisi and c.c.k for demo.
I just cant wait for that day, the day, when we make victory!
Sometimes, i felt that, i am such a dissapoinment. When i read my diary back, then i realised how much ive hurt people. I wish i could turn back time and meet love earlier. =))
Do take care.
@ 9:56 AM
Tuesday, June 1, 2010 ♥
Happy birthday sayangg~
This is whad happen in lecture.
I had not been updating like i am suppose to. HAHA. confirm that man mengamok.
well, there is always up and down in life kan..?
That day, love bring me go jalan jalan on friday.
Got a same design wallet for the both of us.
Then the next day.
IVP!
can you believe it? LINCAH PER!
Kay, got silver for regu.
HAHA. dont talk about tanding, i screw it up.
ANW,on friday, we go by public, and i just know tht love din noe dat on top of the door got the like map thingy. HAHA. his reaction. FUH! one in a million!
hahahah.
NOW!
im having a very very painful throat. very sharp.
K, i want go sleep.
love, you meant so much to me. =)
well, there is always up and down in life kan..?
That day, love bring me go jalan jalan on friday.
Got a same design wallet for the both of us.
Then the next day.
IVP!
can you believe it? LINCAH PER!
Kay, got silver for regu.
HAHA. dont talk about tanding, i screw it up.
ANW,on friday, we go by public, and i just know tht love din noe dat on top of the door got the like map thingy. HAHA. his reaction. FUH! one in a million!
hahahah.
NOW!
im having a very very painful throat. very sharp.
K, i want go sleep.
love, you meant so much to me. =)
@ 10:41 AM
