It is a really good start. I remembered every single thing about us. About how, WE started and all. I never expected, us to be together, till that night, when you said, you waited for somebody for a year.

For all the days ang nights we've gone through, my heart beats faster. Cause, now that i realise, my previous, was a rebounce feeling. But you, with our faith in each other, we'll last, God's-willing.

I had been tutoring ADULTS for maths. And im pretty stress. With the heaviside luh, laplace luh. pantat uh. And, if i got ten students like them, i'd resigned =.=' Exams are around the corner. And im pretty worried about Automatic control and mechanics. I dont wanna repeat lah.

Anyhoos, ive grown! Sadly, not vertically, but horizontally. DAMN it. cause, i never train for like, a month plus? hahah. With the injuries and pains im having. But, love keep saying, I tembam. bukan gemok. and he like lost hope dengan i gitu. hehe. takpeluh, tu sumer tak penting. yang penting, I cute! Woohooo!

I love mama, ayah and adik-adik. I dont wanna lose anyone of them. I'm not ready to face any loses. Im not strong enough to face it alone. And the last bits of strength, comes from, love. And the pillar, will be my beliefs of qadar and qadak. Oh Tuhan, jauhi insan-insan yang aku sayangi dari segala malapetaka, walau seberat mana ujianmu 'kan aku terima, tetapi berilah aku kekuatan dan hidayah-Mu ya Allah.




p/s: imy.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010 ♥

Thanks for everything Muhammad Noorfitri.















much L.O.V.E.

@ 10:59 AM

Monday, August 9, 2010 ♥

I hate myself. I widen my circle of friends. I make people wait for me. I make people suffer while im blissfully attached. I make myself look so good, when actually i am not. I hate myself. I despise myself. I just see myself as a dirty somebody. I just hate myself. I really do.

Kenaper aku kene raser ni sumer? Kenaper aku kene ader satu penyesalan dalam diri aku sedangkan aku tau tak sumer manusia yang sempurna? aku nak hidup yang normal. why must it be me for you to let out your animal desire? why must you pick me to repay back for what happened? why? why?

guys,
im not trying to brag. but, u guys keep saying, ure the one ive been looking for. ure the one ive been waiting for. but guys, you're wrong. i was never the one. the one that you guys looked for.

@ 10:24 AM

Wednesday, August 4, 2010 ♥

I know ive abandoned this blog for so long.
Yeah, ive been very busy and im getting very lonely now.
I hate flirting around like i used to whenever im single.
With the fact, that im bored.

ANW,
Liu Tai Sheng has already made his way back to china.
I, hanisah, shuhadah and nabil sent him off to the airport.
Nabil drove us there. LUCKY.

I heard this from someone,
Doesnt mean you are in a relationship that has been going on for years, you willl end up marrying with him or her.

This made me reflect back about my past. My longest relationship. 3 years plus.
Ya, see.. It was a very long relationship. Very blissful. Very pure. Though there are the ups and downs, i still dont end up marrying with him.

Ramadhan coming already.
This is gonna be my first year after the three years relationship celebrating ramadhan without a boyfriend. Its okay, ni menjauhkan aku dari dosa maksiat. Dan mengeratkan silaturrahim dengan familydan ibadah. Insya-Allah.

@ 11:31 AM